So last night I was waundering around the house, thinking, man i want candy!!
so i ended up having (throughout the night) 2 fudsicles, 3 sting cheese, one jello sugar free whip, and a whole bag of micro popcorn.
what the hell. I had eaten chicken and broc for dinner, and I was just on a rampage.
I did leave the klondike bar alone, cause i looked at the carb count on it! lol.
then today at work, i ate about 12 hersey kisses, 3 whoppers, and just couldn't stop..
I just don't get it. maybe just the stress of Chistmas and doing decorations, and cards, and it just makes me feel more lonely.. and ussually if Ry's not around at christmas I'm like really super emotional, but for stupid things, like a commercial will make me cry, or a dumb song... it's like I'm at a boiling point, and anything can make it overflow.. hard to describe. I can go about my day to day business and be fine.. but I know that deep down, I Must be really bothered.. guess i'm really good at bottling it, even to myself! lol.
that's gotta be it! i'm trying to EAT my emotions! lol.
on a plus side, as of today, still 199! crossing my fingers for tomorrow though, it's not looking good and i'll be sooo mad at myself to be 200 again.. furious!